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“The next day I saw you more clearly than I had before, as if you’d been drawn against the background of the others.”

i had to read the last page to make sure it ended the way i wanted it to, it was getting too sad

"disappointingly, when she passes me the joint, the tip is bone dry"

what i felt most keenly was not his empty presence, but his absence

in attempting to possess something that was never there we lost something we already had

“[…] had a wild, typical Slavic streak, dangerous for himself and others.”

“Maybe you don’t know you can, my dear, and in your human pride you persist in believing in your free will.”

“These people make one feel as if a stronger memory of our former innocence remains in them, […]”

“Maybe it means that he who suffers has special access to God, by a side door, he is blessed, he embraces some sort of truth which without suffering would be hard to comprehend.”

“I cannot be someone other than I am. How awful”

my eyes glaze over on the calculations part

you best believe im adding the textbooks im reading for research in here

“Perhaps he’s still alive,” said Dizzy mournfully.

I prayed that he was not.

the tone shift is very striking, it came jarringly but almost like it was building up to this darkness.

i often think similarly: how free would i be if i knew the date of my death, or how painful it was — would life feel lighter?

“In any case, I know the date of my own death, and that lets me feel free.”

would you feel free?

“[…] in the process it strips reality of its most essential quality — its inexpressibility.”

“I’d amuse myself like that for half an hour — playing the game of crossing the border. It gave me pleasure, because I could remember the time when it wasn’t possible. I love crossing borders.”

this is so beautiful and historically heavy for an eastern eur

also i’m anti borders but boy do i love crossing them too

“Finally, transformed into tiny quivering photons, each of our deeds will set off into Outer Space, where the planets will keep watching it like a film until the end of the world.”

“All of them, without exception, had moustaches.”

getting quite slow now but also quite philosophical which i like - asking very interesting ideas about reincarnation and life from a completely new perspective - i quite like this version of Alice Law

the lack of communication trope gets tiring real quick but alas:

“lines that are parallel meet at infinity”

oop Ottawa mentioned