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“Enough, Lina, enough, enough, I’m too happy. I know that I’ve treated you badly but now let’s stop, don’t say mean things to me,” and his eyes filled with tears of joy.”

stefano carracci head bird

as someone who has been mourning lila’s potential as an academic i can’t believe i finally get to see her desire to go back to studying… for a Man. not for herself. but for that fake pretentious performative bum. im sick

i'm genuinely going to throw up this is the most horrid shit i've had to witness. im always on her side but god why LORD WHY WHY

“I was living in them, unobtrusively... Their passion invaded me, disturbed me. I loved them both and so I couldn’t love myself, feel myself, affirm myself with a need for life of my own, one that had the same blind, mute force as theirs.”

elena greco the most tortured bisexual in all of naples.

“Why, then, even when I advanced, was I so quick to retreat? Why did I always have ready a gracious smile, a happy laugh, when things went badly? Why, sooner or later, did I always find plausible excuses for those who made me suffer?”

my shayla......

i am very much aware of the possibility of lenu being an unreliable narrator as she recounts these parts of her life with lila but sometimes i think she should just be given a gun. to shoot nino, lila, herself. doesnt matter. she needs a gun

chapter 36. my jaw is on the floor. i’ve never seen someone talk with just such pure sinister hatred and intent to humiliate. who needs enemies when you have a best friend like rafaella cerullo carracci

“It’s not true. I tell you all my secrets, even the worst, you tell me hardly anything about yourself.”
“You’re wrong. The only person I don’t hide anything from is you.”
She shook her head no energetically, she said, “Even if you’re better than me, even if you know more things, don’t leave me.”

man theyre in this codependent shit for life 😭😭🙏🏻🙏🏻

lila invents mixed media

“He said I had made him look like someone who sends his woman to ask a favor. He said that he would not go down on his knees to anyone…. that in fact he would die in the Army rather than go and kiss the hand of Marcello Solara.”

EDI AYAW NALANG POTANGINA TANAN NALANG SALA NI LENU BOISET

i understand the politics of these bum ass men but FAWK! cant my sister catch a break!

We need to kill Donato Sorrante. It’s the only way.

“Cleaning the rooms I found a blue paper bookmark that belonged to Nino and I hid it among my things. At night, in my bed in the kitchen, I sniffed it, kissed it, licked it with the tip of my tongue and cried. My own desperate passion moved me and my weeping fed on itself.”

shes crazy omfgrgsjshns i can tell this is about to be a mess

“But people will fall in love with you.”
“Worse for them.”
“They’ll suffer like that Dido.”
“No, they’ll go and find someone else, just like Aeneas, who eventually settled down with the daughter of a king.”

its easy to peg lila as antagonistic in lelu's life but then u read these passages and see how much she devalues herself. her brilliance will always be undercut by the reality of her circumstances

“I passed by, I greeted her, but she was so absorbed that she didn’t hear me. I always caught phrases that seemed to me beautiful, and they made me suffer.”

im sorry this is gay af. elena has such a deep codependency with lila, its like she cant properly exist and thrive if shes not being validated by her presence

genuinely so intrigued by everything happening so far. elena and lila's dynamic is taking me back to the almost cult-y feeling i had in my younger years with friends who thrived on tests of loyalty, but i dont hate lila at all, given her troubles at home. i resonate with elena so deeply. i am fascinated by their world so far. disperazione.