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This subtle evolution is very captivating. Still, with all the questions. I started watching the Sopranos last night and couldn’t stop thinking about it while I read this.

I was taking a piss in the men’s room and someone wrote, ‘I love big boobs’, in large letters, with circles supposed to be nipples inside of the o’s. Refer to my earlier questions

Such an interesting voice, whose idiosyncrasies are immediately captivating and value system so simply complex.

Is death gruesome, or is it only right?

Szalay has done an exceptional job being so unexceptional. In so little time I’m already being asked so many questions. What constitutes the erotic, sexy, compared to the perverted and gross? The masculine urge to procreate is a myth. Men want to dominate, to conquer, and to share their conquests, not to have sex, to do it. Whats a boy to do? when finally he is aroused, besides allow himself to be violated, be done

This is fun

I’m struggling to put into words what I like about this so much.

I seldom find myself so deeply immersed in character, and such little is happening

Carmen Maria Machado’s footnotes are terrible. Her meta-narrative introduction was not yet interesting enough to be frustrating. Perhaps I’ll grow fondness as I read but I don’t see myself enjoying her edit. I do not like the art, I find it unecessary. However, the story so far on its own is atmospheric enough to ignore it. Hopefully I am not dragged out too much by the horrid format. If so I’ll read online.

Hesse is simple and fun to read, and in simple exposition and in simple dialogue, questions are raised to be answered like a sinking stone

Putting off finishing this honestly, I don’t want to be done

Real tear jerker

Real tear jerker

Wow

Mr. Ramsay is autistic as shit

Sometimes I have to reread sentences a few times to understand what comma denotes an appositive and what continues the sentence. Sometimes the pronouns blur together as a character thinks of another. Once I understand a sentence I am proud and content. Once I am better acclimated to the prose I will read in larger boluses, for now I really enjoy so far but do not have much stamina.

Do people read forewords? Anyway, really like. I can already tell the lack of quotation will annoy me at some point but is at others deeply intelligible, like thoughts and words spoken and what about them can only be communicated by an omniscient voice, not even that of the thinker themself because they themself are not aware of themself entirely wade into one. That was my attempt at a Woolf-style run-on sentence.

Finished the namesake and I see why it’s that

The Message: my favorite and least favorite so far. Often when I finish a movie, and not as often when I finish a show, I feel there is an emptiness and dissatisfied longing for something more that is already there. Sometimes lispector makes me think, ‘how many times can someone say the same thing’. But where the rolling of the credits exorcizes presence in my heart, the last page of lispector stories stay

Faldum - Sure there is substance; themes and such. Sure I could think of a way to make my understanding of them into words. What lingers after a read is unintelligible. The same can be said for a movie, a painting, even a meal. Whatever nebulous term one may use - aura, vibe, atmosphere - is fitting. Hesse writes like an early Disney animation, it’s incredible.

The Disasters of Sophia: Am I a nine-year-old girl