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To have in general but little feeling, seems to be the only security against feeling too much on any particular occasion.

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"I didn't want to write a book, even a short one like this, that would leave me feeling like either a literary gasbag or a transcendental asshole." (Oh, I'm going to like this book. The Post-It notes are ready.)

Death was an attempt to communicate.

"For the truth is that human beings have neither kindness, nor faith, nor charity beyond what serves to increase the pleasure of the moment. They hunt in packs. Their packs scour the desert and vanish screaming into the wilderness. They desert the fallen. They are plastered over with grimaces.

I've been reading Woolf's books in chronological order, and I definitely prefer her older stuff. It's more raw. But, I will finish this book, regardless.

Why is it that if a book includes a dog, something horrible is inevitably going to happen to it? I've half a mind to throw this out the window.

'You ought to know better, a clever lad like you.' People were always saying things like that to me..The words used to drive me into secret rages, because on the one hand I wanted desperately to live up to my own reputation for cleverness, and on the other it seemed very unfair, that that cleverness could be turned into something with which to cut me down.

I really liked this book at first. Lots of facts that I wasn't aware of. But, it got extremely tedious after awhile and it took me days to read the last fifty pages.

Come on. Really? Ugh. "Indians who had once used hatchets to bare the skulls of white men drifted over from Buffalo Bill's compound..."

"Dreadful Things Done by Girls."

"Gentleman, I'm prepared to state that any person from St. Louis would rob a church!" Thank you to the broad who left this in my apartment, many apartments ago, for my ex to read. Haha.

This is what I feel and would say, if I was better at expressing myself: "I destroy people without meaning to. Everywhere I go things become confused and terrifying. For you, I would like to begin all over again...I won't appear anymore with clothes that are held together with safety pins! I've been living stupidly, blindly, doing nothing but drinking, smoking, talking. I'm afraid of disillusioning you."

"One positive to being stuck at home: I'm finally working through the 500 books on my Kindle."