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Love is self sustaining. It doesn’t get weak and die when you don’t feed it. Even when you put it away, locked it up, shut in the deepest recesses of my heart, I still loved her in the dark. I could love her from a distance. I could love her in silence. I could love her without wanting to.
And I did.

Maybe this isn’t the kind of love that deserves to exist. Maybe it’s the kind that wars start over. The kind that toppled empires and never leave the world better than it found it

(…) you realize that an actual smile, a true one… it can only happen when there is truly zero artifice.

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I knew a lot of things in that moment. I knew Raff had found somebody who actually loved him. A proper best friend. And… I knew that I wanted to know what it would feel like to be on the receiving end of that smile.

Like maybe those two hearts brushing shoulders while they strolled through the park actually haven’t been beaten to death by the spectre of a breakup.

Loving her made me think about death. In a good way. It was a gift. It was because I wasn’t scared to go. Not when I had her.
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She’s my “the end is the beginning”.