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If a professed Christian around me did not outwardly exhibit fruitfulness in his or her life, such as kindness or self-control, others in my community called these fruitless people’s faith into question… caught up in tracing my shortcomings, I did not recognize the faith that I was displaying in getting myself the treatment that I needed.

Se il per sempre non esiste lo inventeremo noi… “if forever doesn’t exist, we’ll invent it ourselves.”

“She wants everything to change and she wants it all to remain the same. She wants and wants and wants. At least here, lying still underneath the thatch, she can go on wanting everything without the complication of having any of it.”

”This idea of safety is something Phyllis drilled into her, as if it were the most important thing, the only thing. An idea synonymous with survival. But Wanda has begun to suspect that this isn’t true… What if survival and risk belong to one another?”

“She has been empty for so long. It’s strange to feel this full.”

“Everything Phyllis ever taught her about how to survive, how to stay safe, swirls, sinks. And overlaying it, this new feeling, warm and soft and expansive. The spaciousness of wanting something she doesn’t need. It feels good, but she is afraid that when she finally dips her paddle back into the water and propels herself toward home, away from Bird Dog, it will fade.”

“What is magic but science that is not yet understood? What is science but magic with an exclamation?”

And finally, there are the feelings that accompany, moving: wisps of heartache hiding beneath the mundanity of his to-do list, bursts of pleasure to be shedding a life that doesn’t fit. It feels as bad as he was afraid it might, and it feels as good as he hoped it could.

“The time for marking ecological change and acting on it has passed, and if she’s honest, there is a relief in releasing those fervent unfulfilled desires for solutions. Now all that’s left is to behold these environments as they transition. The great rewilding, as she likes to call it. Humans have spoiled so much, but nature is resourceful. It dies and is reborn as something new.”