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Don’t get cocky when you see success. You’re not as big of a deal as you feel. And the feeling fades. What remains is the eternal joy of getting to do work you love.

Stop waiting for permission and prepare to do the work. There are no big breaks. Only tiny drips of effort that lead to waves of momentum.


It really irks me when the same concept is mentioned again.

Some concepts were repetitive and go round in circles. Some lines hit you home. A so-so self help book.

We are waiting for your words. Longing to be changed. Will you share your art? Will you believe you are a writer and start writing?

The faces I knew so well – that would age and wrinkle, with haircuts that would come and go, and lines that would deepen. Some from laughter, some from sadness. Time would march determinedly on, and we would hold onto each other determinedly as it did so.

long live all the magic we made i had the time of my life with you

We will not let go of the threads of each other. We will not shut each other out.

Another year of growing, changing, learning and, inevitably, being let down by life and the fact that it just keeps going, rather than pausing on the days when everything is going well.

Us not being us had cut off all of our oxygen. We’d all been suffocating.

Us

Mourning the fact my life isn’t turning out exactly how it should, especially considering what a brilliant and amazing person I am.

We’d both worked so hard to get better. Us, our love, was our reward. We were supposed to be basking in the harvest of our efforts, not tumbling back down into dark rabbit holes.

This is life, Lottie. There’s no such thing as a happy ending. Because there’s no such thing as an ending. More days keep coming, some good some bad. You can’t just stay limboed in a moment of happiness – that’s not realistic.

Happy Ever After doesn't exist even in friendships. That's so sad.

It’s what people do who get put with people they don’t get on with. It could happen to anyone.

huhu

social rejects ouch

I just realized Lottie and I went through the same thing in uni. Our classmates secretly and openly hated us for being us. The giggles, laughing and stage-whispering behind our backs were so cruel huhu

We all smiled, until Evie said, “And, if you’re leaving, I guess it’s where it will all end too.”

so saddddd

Where is the arrogant and superior Lottie and does not give a shit about what people thinks? She now crumbled as an inferior huhu

Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere

Will was definitely a bad news from the get go huhu

How had this evening come to this? How had life gone this way? How can any good come from a year that starts with your first love kissing you on the forehead, whispering “Goodbye” and walking away from you, leaving you sinking into the lawn, your heartbreak bleeding out onto the cold frost of the ground?

Ohhh the deep conversation muffled by the new year countdownnn I can already picture this in a film

Amber running away from her family who treats her like a stranger. Lottie isolating and shutting everyone out because uni and Will wrecked her confidence. Evie is once again spiraling because Oli is spiraling too and is going to be left all alone in their tiny town.

This is so sad but this is reality. People change. People leave.

Auld Lang Syne perfectly fits this book huhu

Everything is so messy with their livess

Evie is this is me trying personified T_T

He didn’t sound interested, only annoyed. Oh God, I was annoying him. I couldn’t annoy him. Why am I always annoying people?

Lottie in her people-pleaser era T_T where is my fierce, outspoken and brave Lottie?

I mean, one of the reasons I loved Will was that he’d fallen in love with me for me – for angry, complicated, over-dramatic me.
Well, I thought he had.
Recently it’s seemed like it’s actually all those bits of me he silently wishes away.

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult

:(

When you best laid plans don't turn out the way you hope them to be and they just fall through right before your eyes.

I move through the world with the heartbroken
My longings stay unspoken
And I may never open up the way I did for you
And all of those best laid plans

There are always two sides to a story. Being blinded by anger and getting misunderstood screws it all up.

The Spinster Trio and their boys are so messy ahahahuhuh I bet Oli will never show up because if he does that will be so shocking