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"What the world's scariest noise is.
Is it a man crying out in pain?
A woman's scream of terror?
A gunshot?
A baby crying?
And the professor shakes his head and says, 'No, the scariest noise is, you're all alone in your dark empty house, you KNOW you're all alone, you know that there is NO chance anyone else is home or within MILES - and then, suddenly, from upstairs, you hear the toilet flush."

Of course, no one can save you.

I couldn’t be with people and I didn’t want to be alone. Suddenly my perspective whooshed and I was far out in space, watching the world. I could see millions and millions of people, all slotted into their lives; then I could see me—I’d lost my place in the universe. It had closed up and there was nowhere for me to be.

“Every time you victimized someone, you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”

That’s how I felt now, like I’d been sawing away at something and come to the end and here I was by myself again, in my small house with no job, no family, and I was holding two ends of fabric and didn’t know what to do next

I think Colleen is Krissy's daughter.

"I shall not be here
I shall rise and pass
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee"

"মস্ত মাঠের অগুনতি ঘাসের ডাঁটির একটিতে একটা বোকা পিঁপড়ে ধীরে ধীরে উঠছে। উঠলো, চারদিক বুঝি চেয়ে দেখলো একটু, তারপর ফের নামতে লাগলো। কি মিষ্টি, বোকা, ছোট্ট একটু ঘটনা। পিঁপড়েরা মাঝে মাঝে এমনি মিছেমিছি পরিশ্রম করে।"

I’m Ava, I remember people from this place.
I remember them, but not from here.
How can I remember a world that isn’t mine? One that isn’t
the one I wake up in every day now?

when he touches me I think of all those stupid love songs you used to sing

Hair still the shade of red that makes people (usually old) say things like “My, it looks like someone lit a match on your head!” I miss you telling those people to watch out or they’d get burned.

You always knew what to do, what to say. You knew how to make anyone smile or shut the hell up. You dyed your hair purple with Kool-Aid for kicks and made snoring noises when Giggles lectured us about being late. Even drunk I could never do those things.