Jaiya Badhan’s Reviews > Nausea > Status Update

“You are indispensable to me: I change, but I’d understood that you stay motionless and I measure my changes in relation to you”

omg just such perfect writing

I should so like to let myself go, to forget, to sleep. But I can’t, I’m suffocating: existence is penetrating me all over, through the eyes, through the nose, through the mouth…

And suddenly, all at once, the veil is torn away, I have understood, I have seen.

“Why am I here? - And why shouldn’t I be here? [] I shall see Anny again: for the moment, that is my only reason for living. And afterwards? When Anny has left me? I know very well what I’m secretly hoping: I am hoping that she will never leave me again. Yet I ought to know that Anny will never agree to grow old infront of me.”