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"What relief to have a moment outside of hating the thing you are...I felt such gratitude that I was me because I could touch this perfect thing."

""It's like when you're listening to a favourite song and there's this one part you love-- a guitar riff or the way the singer says something. And you wait and wait, enjoying it all, but just fucking dying for that moment. And when the moment comes, it's like you can let go and finally be happy. That's how people-- that's how I-- feel around you. "

I didn't want to fuck him because it seemed beneath what I felt for him. In the very spare moments where I allowed sex and Jake to exist in the same mental sentence...I felt I'd tarnished something. I wanted Jake as much as I wanted to be Jake as much as I wanted to be his friend as much as I wanted to be his brother."

"I was used to that strange pining then, where I was more interested in the beauty of boys than girls because I wished so badly that I were them."