Jacob Medina’s Reviews > Nam > Status Update

“I had no expectations of being a hero when I came back. I did expect to get a job. I thought the government would take care of us. But we were Kennedy’s children and when we got back, Kennedy wasn’t around, so we got fucked.”

“Containing communism was only worth 5 percent of the war. Generator capital for corporations was 41 percent. I was pledging allegiance to Dow and Monsanto and all the large corporations. That shattered my whole image of the US, of freedom and democracy, of the world we live in, all the ideals I had gone to Vietnam with. The sacrifice was a lie. The war was a fraud.”

“”No one interview, no particular story made me cry. None of the veterans had spilled his guts on me. It was just the accumulation of too much vicarious, second-hand pain, broken voices and broken spirits. What a waste.”

“The war in Vietnam left a wound on my generation that hasn’t healed.”

“Americans were wasted in an amazing variety of ways in Vietnam’s when they returned home, they were wasted again, like greasy paper plates after the picnic.”

“On their own again, they’re making the best of a bad situation.”

“Now a lot of vets back here in the World just picked up rifles and started shooting people. I can understand that. They could not adjust. They just threw us back into a place that we were untrained to live in. They should have had to train us to come back into the World. It took me years to understand I’m part of the United States.”

“Somebody stabbed us in the back. The average person in the peace struggle didn’t understand. We got stabbed in the back by the Army, while we were in the Army. We got stabbed in the back when we got back to the US by the Peace people. We got stabbed in the back by President Nixon. He’s talking nonsense. Kissinger is talking about peace and ending the war. All this is garbage.”

“I’m back but I don’t belong. I wanted to go back to the Nam. … This world was alienating, what people was talking, what people was liking.”

“You did your duty, you didn’t run off to Canada. You didn’t fake some head case to go 4-F. We all know that you’ve been a killer. You’re a little strange. We don’t trust you, not all the way, because you’ve been through this terrible, harrowing experiences you did what you were told to do and you did it very well. You’ve just been fucked.”

“Later when we got home, my brother said ‘Don’t wear your uniform.’ What kind of shit was that? I wanted to wear the fucking thing. I had my ribbons. I was proud of what I’d done. I’m a king. That didn’t hurt me then, but it hurts me now.”