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“I wanted to die, I have told you many times. It is cruel to have made me want to live only to make my death more bloody?”

My babyyy 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞

You are evil, you know, and sometimes when you smiled at me I hated you. You smiled at me the way you smiled at everyone, you told me what you told everyone-and you tell nothing but lies. What are you always hiding?(…) when you made love to me, you were making love to no one? No one! Or everyone— but not me, certainly. I am nothing to you, nothing, and you bring me fever but no delight.'

“I have never reached you, you have
never really been here. I do not think you have ever lied to me but I know that you have never told me the truth why?
Sometimes you were here all day long and you read or you opened the window or you cooked something-and I watched you-and you never said anything-and you looked at me with such eyes, as though you did not see me.”

Clock him!!

'We are not rich,' said Giovanni, grimly, but we will eat tomorrow.'

Jesus christ kill me kill me right now

Sometimes, when he was not near me, I thought, I will never let him touch me again. Then, when he touched me, I thought it doesn't matter, it is only the body, it will soon be over. When it was over I lay in the dark and listened to his breathing and dreamed of the touch of hands, of Giovanni's hands, or anybody's hands, hands which would have the power to crush me and make me whole again.

“perhaps home is not a place but simply an irrevocable condition.”