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I actually returned… because I wanted to know how the short story would end…

Now, the continuation wasn’t all that exciting, and there wasn’t even truly an ending at all… but that’s hardly the point anymore…

I actually wanted to continue reading! My interest is showing clear signs of life again!

However slight those may be.

That was much more soothing than anticipated. It felt like the good old days of reading, albeit muted through my current condition.

Little night reading with a slow-burning filtered cigarillo…

Kinda nice, but shouldn’t get too comfortable with it…

This truly feels more aphoristic. And that does not invite me to do longer reading in this book.

Oh, the unexpected turns of life.

My former love saved me from bitterness. A last dance in which the love and recognition we share was acknowledged, even though it was not meant to last.

I’m grateful to have been able to experience true love, even if the practice thereof could not be, could not have been, consistent.

And to know it was not me that made it impossible.

Continuing the return to myself.

I’m only now, nearing two months after the break-up, starting to get a true grasp of how far I’ve moved from myself in this relationship in order to love someone who didn’t want to grow as a person — which I, naturally, had not realised while being in the situation.

I honestly could not fathom how somebody of such self-awareness could be content to live a lie she recognised.

Oh my god. I’m doing some reading again.

Moved back into my own Leiden apartment last weekend.

It felt like meeting myself again when filling up my bookcases. Made me wonder how I could have allowed my perspective to be so heavily distorted and minimised in the past half a year, with already only so many books being part of it.

Somehow, this book spoke to me, so I picked it up.

I hope this is the start of rediscovering my reading passion.