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“And I also felt, standing so close to him, feeling such a passion to keep him from terror, that a decision - once again! - had been taken from my hands. For neither my father, nor Hella, was real at that moment. And yet even this was not as real as my despairing sense that nothing was real for me, nothing would ever be real for me again - unless, indeed, this sensation of falling was reality.” What the fuck😭

not finished but “Sometimes, when he was not near me, I thought, I will never let him touch me again. Then when he touched me, I thought I doesn’t matter, it is only the body, it will soon be over. When it was over I lay in the dark and listened to his breathing and dreamed of the touch of hands, of Giovanni’s hands, or anybody’s hands, hands which would have the power to crush me and make me whole again.”