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I crush my own suffering beneath the weight of my disdain. Ah, but then I only suffer more, because giving value to one's suffering gilds it with the golden sun of pride. Great suffering can give us the illusion of being Pain's Chosen One.
— Jun 27, 2025 06:41AM
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No, I didn't sleep, but I'm better when I haven't sleep and can't sleep. I am more truly myself in this random eternity, symbolic of the half-souled state in which I live deluding myself. Someone looks at me as if they knew me or thought they knew me. With painful eyes beneath sore eyelids I feel myself look back at them; I don't want to know about the world out there.
(Oh, Pessoa I've missed you.)
— Jan 12, 2026 08:19PM
(Oh, Pessoa I've missed you.)
