Rivkah’s Reviews > Hurts So Good: The Science and Culture of Pain on Purpose > Status Update

“But I believe that this was also a desperate attempt to medicate myself. To blur the enormity of the hurt I carried with me, hurt that I am still quietly and meticulously working through with mental health professionals to this day. I think I desperately wanted to feel something else. To feel bad to feel better, to feel something to feel nothing.”

“In the pantheon of my lifetime love affair with masochism, sown in me during years of ballet, born in me through history and chance, patterned for me and taught to me, embraced by me, loved by me, desperately cultivated and sought by me, this is the time where things are really bad.”

Strong start