Myrthe’s Reviews > Beverly > Status Update

Some people enter our lives not simply to be loved, but to change the way we understand love. Beverly was one of those. Without her, nothing added up. And so I chose her -again and again, in every version of time. I chose her in the past, I chose her in the present, and I would choose her in the future. In every tomorrow, in every unknown, in every possibility the world could offer.

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no no no no

His shadow never stayed long enough to warm my soul, but I held onto it, pretending it was enough.

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I should have felt something, anything - excitement, nerves, anticipation. But all I felt was the same tightness in my chest.
I knew the truth: I could let a dozen boys flirt with me, could let them touch my hand, kiss my lips, whisper my name.
But they would never be him.

And in that moment I realized I would never love anything the way I loved Beverly.
Not in this life.
Not in the next.
Not in any version of myself that could have ever existed.

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And besides, when I pictured a girl tangled up in my sheets, she didn’t have brown hair. She had blonde hair. Blue eyes. And a name I couldn’t say without feeling like I was bleeding from the inside out.

This man YEARNS

“You’re the best person,” she corrected, a wobbly smile breaking through the tears. “You’re the best thing that ever happened to me.”

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How do you tell someone you don't love them -not because they are unworthy of love or haven't tried hard enough, but because someone else has already taken that place in your heart? How do you shape something so cruel into words that won't leave scars behind?

The writing is so beautiful

'For everyone who loves with a heart that bruises easily but beats boldly'

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