Emily, Shadow's Girlie ✞ || [fallon's vrs] > Status Update

I’m always scared to tell people I’m homeschooled. Every person freaks out when I say I’m homeschooled, saying I act like a public schooled kid, and I’ve had people immediately ditch me because I’m homeschooled.

Also, idc if ur a German! I love being friends with u!!

casserole wrote: "I’m always scared to tell people I’m homeschooled. Every person freaks out when I say I’m homeschooled, saying I act like a public schooled kid, and I’ve had people immediately ditch me because I’m..."

that’s sick that ppl do that. I’m sorry babes 🫂💖 I’m homeschooled too so I can relate to this. ppl are just so mean sometimes

casserole wrote: "Also, idc if ur a German! I love being friends with u!!"

aww thank you!!! that means so much!!! 🥹

This isn’t really a secret to people I know well, but I get nervous to mention that I have adhd and anxiety because I technically haven’t been diagnosed yet (I’m working on it, it’s just a bit of a process) but like I know for a fact I have them, but I’m always scared to mention it to people because I don’t want them to think I’m lying for attention. Like no, the only reason I’m telling you is so you understand why I am the way that I am 😔 Also I’m part german (I think 1/8 or smth like that) and I’ve had those same thoughts. I really want to learn more about my ancestry but I think it’s also important to remember that no matter what ethnicity you are, or who you are a descendant of, we find our identity in Christ!

yeah, people shouldnt be doing that

also homeschooled :). i get exhausted telling people i dont play sports, bc usually people flip out and demand i join a team. (I like watching sports but im just not a sporty person. I’m a horse rider and outdoorsy gal but i hate basketball and all that)

Jaycee Ann ✞ wrote: "This isn’t really a secret to people I know well, but I get nervous to mention that I have adhd and anxiety because I technically haven’t been diagnosed yet (I’m working on it, it’s just a bit of a..."

I get that! I know someone who’s the same way, but she def isn’t attention seeking, it’s just she hasn’t been diagnosed!

and that’s so true! thanks I needed that reminder! my ethnicity doesn’t determine my value in Christ. He doesn’t care if I’m German or not 😁

Finch wrote: "also homeschooled :). i get exhausted telling people i dont play sports, bc usually people flip out and demand i join a team. (I like watching sports but im just not a sporty person. I’m a horse ri..."

aww yeah homeschoolers rock! 🤘🏻and omg real. like who cares if you’re on a sports team or not?

Something that I am afraid of mentioning is that I actually want to fall in love and get married and have a family.
I’ve always been a super independent person and ig I was just scared of being in love when I was younger but now I actually want to and I’m scared people will judge me for that.
I don’t want people to think differently of me after I say that instead of being a single independent woman who does everything herself, I want to fall in love and share my life with someone else

@Emily exactly. Plus i suck at sports. It’s just bc im tall.

Also love the pfp Chris Pratt is my favorite actor 😄

Isa wrote: "Something that I am afraid of mentioning is that I actually want to fall in love and get married and have a family.
I’ve always been a super independent person and ig I was just scared of being in ..."

you’re my soul sister, I have this same fear and dream. I used to be the same way. nobody should think of you differently bc you want to fall in love and get married. It’s your own personal life, it’s your dream, and if ppl can’t handle that, then that’s their problem. I fully support your dream girl 🫂

Finch wrote: "@Emily exactly. Plus i suck at sports. It’s just bc im tall.

Also love the pfp Chris Pratt is my favorite actor 😄"

OMG THANKS!! CHRIS PRATT IS LEGIT MY FAVE!
and same. I’m tall (not as tall as you though), and I've sucked at every sport except gymnastics, and that was before my growth spurt, and I had to quit bc of covid

That i just want to be free. Like, everyone expects me grow up, get a job, get married, settle down, and have a family. But i want to travel, explore the world, live life to the fullest (while glorifying God obviously). Kinda live up to my name (it means "free woman" lol)

@Emily thank u babes 🫂

Probably that I’m not allowed to watch movies with magic or witchcraft. I’m always worried that people will judge me. I was allowed when I was little so I have seen Sofia the First and Frozen and Disney Princess movies, I’m just not allowed to watch them anymore. 🥲

Also that’s awesome! I hate that people think German equals Nazi. I actually have friends who are German and they’re so cool! And you are too! I love being friends with you! 💖🤩

Hello fellow German! :)

I've never really talked to guys my age. Literally I've always been very shy since I was little (Awkwardly shy) And there is this guy I like who is a family friend, but I've barely said anything to him before even though I've liked him from the moment we met. 😪

CC ❄️₊˚ wrote: "That i just want to be free. Like, everyone expects me grow up, get a job, get married, settle down, and have a family. But i want to travel, explore the world, live life to the fullest (while glor..."

that’s so cool! that’s such a beautiful dream! and I’d say as long as you’re glorifying God, then go for it!

casserole wrote: "@Emily thank u babes 🫂"

ofc ml 🫂

Haylee (Jesus's Version) :D wrote: "Probably that I’m not allowed to watch movies with magic or witchcraft. I’m always worried that people will judge me. I was allowed when I was little so I have seen Sofia the First and Frozen and D..."

that makes a lot of sense. I don’t think ppl should judge you bc you can’t watch certain things. I’ve never been allowed to watch stranger things, or hamilton, or wicked, even though those are all the rage these days

and thank you omg! I love being friends with you too!

I'm German too, and there is much about German heritage to be proud of!

The bad things that have been done by some Germans in the past don't dictate over everything German. Anyone who equates being German with being a Nazi is acting ridiculous, don't even worry about that.

Natalya's wrote: "Hello fellow German! :)

I've never really talked to guys my age. Literally I've always been very shy since I was little (Awkwardly shy) And there is this guy I like who is a family friend, but I'..."

hello there fellow German :)

that’s actually so cute. I hope he talks to you! and I’m shy and awkward too, dw, it’s really hard talking to ppl, especially ppl you like

@Emily Yeah. For sure. I’m not allowed to watch any of those either. 🥲
And being in theatre and not allowed to watch Hamilton is just sooo much fun. 🥲😂

Thank you!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼

Arwen wrote: "I'm German too, and there is much about German heritage to be proud of!

The bad things that have been done by some Germans in the past don't dictate over everything German. Anyone who equates bei..."

true! I’m not necessarily ashamed of my ethnicity, just scared that ppl will look at me differently when they find out or if I tell them. I just wish ppl would do their research bc being German doesn’t equal being a Nazi. Nazis were German, not the other way around.

Haylee (Jesus's Version) :D wrote: "@Emily Yeah. For sure. I’m not allowed to watch any of those either. 🥲
And being in theatre and not allowed to watch Hamilton is just sooo much fun. 🥲😂

Thank you!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼"

omg real I was in a theatre group and EVERYONE had watched Hamilton, and I’m here like, “Hey, I watch High School Musical” lol

woah ur GERMAN??!? that's so cool, em!!! <3 what I'm rlly afraid of telling people is that I have anxiety (dignosed in 2020) & autism (officially dignosed when I was 3)! i'm afraid that people might look at me differently/make fun of me--and also that i'm a republican/conservative! in school, I usually don't engage in politics talk or don't mention my views to avoid being made fun of-- :(

@Emily Real. That’s how my theatre group was. 🥲😂

yasmin⭑.ᐟ (semi-ia due to parents) wrote: "woah ur GERMAN??!? that's so cool, em!!! <3 what I'm rlly afraid of telling people is that I have anxiety (dignosed in 2020) & autism (officially dignosed when I was 3)! i'm afraid that people migh..."

aww thank you!!! and I get that, I know a lot of ppl look down on ppl with autism. I’ve seen this first hand. my twin is autistic. He’s been diagnosed since I think he was two. and ppl have treated him very cruelly bc he think a little differently. I won’t ever look at you differently bc you have anxiety or autism, and not just bc my brother is that way, but bc I know you are just as loved and valued despite your disabilities 🫂

Emily me too! My Grandmother is German and when she met my grandpa she became a follower of the Lord 💗
My thing is this:
i know not a lot of people make it, and i know every theater kid says this, but i wanna go live in NYC and be in Broadway. Its been a dream of mine since i was first introduced to theater. I’ve dedicated so much to theater. Been in 18 shows in the past 3 years. Also with my health, i think it would be cool to prove to people that “disability’s” dont hold someone back, it just makes them a little different. Having heart issues has never been easy, i used to be ablw to do ZERO sports and stuff, until i found my little corner of the world, that being theater. Making it on Broadway, i wanna inspire some ither girl out there with a health issue and big dreams :) sorry ik i just rambled lol

that i'm a quadruple A battery. Adhd, Autism, Anxiety, and also Asexual

I'm scared of saying that I'm a Type 1 Diabetic bc people always associate that with unhealthy eating and being fat and all this other stupid trash that isn't true. It's literally genetic and I didn't do anything to cause it. So I try to avoid saying it bc then I always explain what that means so they don't get the wrong impression.

SAME YASMIN SAME

no way, i'm also german! i speak the language fluently, too, so i totally agree with you. because most of the time, when i tell someone that i'm german and that i speak german, they're like wOaH sO yOu'Re DeScEnDeD fRoM HiTLeR? *fp*

That Im homeschooled,I share a room ,i dont have a phone ,i dont do any sports!Those prob sound dum but its a problem for me !

I have a phobia of throwing up so I try to avoid eating in public 😭

I’m so much better now tho praise God!

I sorta have two things.
1) that I do ballet, because when I say "ballet" what people think is like frilly pink tutus which is not representative of the art in any way, and doesn't respect how demanding dance is, and how much time, effort, determination, and work I have to put in to get better, so I avoid saying I do ballet because people just see the outside, and think its easy or all fun and no struggle.
2) when I'm not "fine" and maybe need some help even from friends, because I'm used to being the one there for other people, and the one who doesn't cause my parents any trouble, and is always doing peachy, and I feel like I can't admit I struggle because then people will see me as weak

~•Hannah•~ wrote: "Emily me too! My Grandmother is German and when she met my grandpa she became a follower of the Lord 💗
My thing is this:
i know not a lot of people make it, and i know every theater kid says this,..."

that is so inspiring! I’ll be praying you make it to broadway, and I pray you can show many girls that disabilities don’t define you. keep fighting sister, you’re so very strong

Jupiter (God’s Version ✝️) wrote: "that i'm a quadruple A battery. Adhd, Autism, Anxiety, and also Asexual"

hey that’s okay! if you don’t mind me asking, bc I’m not super educated when it comes to be asexual, does that mean you don’t feel any sexual desire or does it mean something else? just curious

Bentlee | ✞ Mountains, Messiah, & Moody Plots | Brownies, Bible, & Bookish Dreams ✞ | wrote: "I'm scared of saying that I'm a Type 1 Diabetic bc people always associate that with unhealthy eating and being fat and all this other stupid trash that isn't true. It's literally genetic and I did..."

I was once one of those ppl that believed all diabetics were overweight, but awhile ago (when I did gymnastics) I knew a girl who was a type 1 diabetic and she wasn’t overweight, and so I’ve been more mindful of how I think of diabetes bc I realized I was wrong. I don’t like that ppl put everyone into these stereotypes, as if one thing automatically mean another, and there are no exceptions

Asabella wrote: "no way, i'm also german! i speak the language fluently, too, so i totally agree with you. because most of the time, when i tell someone that i'm german and that i speak german, they're like wOaH sO..."

ooh yay a fellow German!!! lol! and real, I’m afraid ppl are gonna call me a descendant of hitler or something 🤦🏻‍♀️ I know a little bit of German, but I haven’t spoken it in a while, so I gotta get back into it, bc I really want to become fluent in the language

Thisbe (Matching Pfp with Eve!) wrote: "That Im homeschooled,I share a room ,i dont have a phone ,i dont do any sports!Those prob sound dum but its a problem for me !"

pretty much same except I have a phone. trust me, it’s nothing to be ashamed of

ChildOfGod💜🙌🏽 (for God I live and for God I die) wrote: "I’m so much better now tho praise God!"

ChildOfGod💜🙌🏽 (for God I live and for God I die) wrote: "I have a phobia of throwing up so I try to avoid eating in public 😭"

me too! I have emetophobia and I literally start hyperventilating whenever one of my siblings has the stomach flu. I’m glad you’ve gotten better over the year, praise the Lord!

Noelle wrote: "I sorta have two things.
1) that I do ballet, because when I say "ballet" what people think is like frilly pink tutus which is not representative of the art in any way, and doesn't respect how dema..."

my sis does ballet! she beats herself up literally everyday! honestly, my dad has threatened to put my brothers through what she goes through bc then they’ll get some real discipline. ballet is no joke! and I’m so sorry! I’ll be praying for you. you are NOT weak bc you admit to struggles. struggles are normal. it’s actually very brave admitting to struggles

Emily, Shadow's Girlie ✞ || [fallon's vrs] wrote: "Noelle wrote: "I sorta have two things.
1) that I do ballet, because when I say "ballet" what people think is like frilly pink tutus which is not representative of the art in any way, and doesn't r..."

Thanks for the prayers 🫶

not exactly secrets, more inner fears: I want to do everything - produce my music, write stores, be a lawyer, I even toyed with the idea of trying to be the first female president (heh, needless to say, that s not an ambition of mine anymore).... I have so many dreams, and a more creative oriented mind then academic, but I love both and want my life to be a mixture of both...my parents would never approve. I think I'm on the autism spectrum, but I don't want to get diagnose bcz what if it's true?? how will that affect me? but at the same time, if it's not true, then I'm just...like this? is it my fault? idk... I've taken a lot of those online quizzes that can't rly be trusted but eh... I'm not confident enough to participate in PE or other sports without certain people, and I can't just "walk up to someone" yk? I tried talking to my mom about it, and all I get is "you needa learn to be more independent, just bcs ur 'friends' aren't doing XC in highschool doesn't mean u have to sniffing after them" or some crap... and it's not that I'm attached, I just ... can't. and I like sports to a point, but it's too overwhelming to do it without others... I tried alone, and I just ended up hating myself after it

anyway, I think it's rly cool that ur German!! I hate that society could make someone scared to tell ppl about their heritage, bcz it should be smth to be proud of! and our ancestors don't define us, whether they we're good or misled. I'm Egyptian btw

that I like struggle with my relationship with food bc I don't like ppl worrying abt me or I write songs lol ppl always act differently like I'm gonna write a song abt them

i’m german too! (don’t live in Germany but i’m like 37% german plus i speak a little bit of german sooooo….)

Sophie [thoughts of oranges] wrote: "not exactly secrets, more inner fears: I want to do everything - produce my music, write stores, be a lawyer, I even toyed with the idea of trying to be the first female president (heh, needless to..."

hey girl, there is NOTHING wrong with you if you are autistic. the best people I’ve known in my entire lifetime are autistic, INCLUDING my brother. and you don’t need your parents approval to chase your dreams. if God is calling you to be musician, lawyer, president, whatever, then chase that! and I get not wanting to do sports without others. I GET IT. That’s nothing to be ashamed of.
and that’s so cool you’re Egyptian!

eliza (💛💙) wrote: "that I like struggle with my relationship with food bc I don't like ppl worrying abt me or I write songs lol ppl always act differently like I'm gonna write a song abt them"

I’m sorry girl! and writing songs is really really cool!