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I locked Orual up or laid her asleep as best I could deep down inside me; she lay curled there. It was like being with child, but reversed; the thing I carried in me grew slowly smaller and less alive

I understood why men become drunkards. Got the way it worked in me was - not at all that it blotted out these sorrows - but that it made them seem glorious and noble, like sad music, and I somehow great and revered for feeling them. I was a great, sad queen in song. I did not check the big tears that rose in my eyes. I enjoyed them. To say all, I was drunk; I played the fool.

A Greek verse says that even the gods cannot change the past. But is this true? He made it as if, from the beginning, I had known that Psyche’s lover was a god, and as if all my doubtings, fears, guessing, debating, questionings of Bardia, questionings of the Fox, all the rummage and business of it, had been trumped-up foolery, dust blown in my eyes by myself.

Everyone loved me once I was dead. But I am ashamed to write all these follies.

Don’t you think the things people are most ashamed of are the things they can’t help?