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"I made Mara cry. I made Steve cry. I made Amanda cry.Anyone who has ever felt anything for me now hates me—after hours of dwelling on this, I’ve actually made myself physically ill."

I really love this book because i feel like eden is the only character I've ever come across in any form of media that I feel is like me.

everyone around her thinking that she acts out to be 'tough' and 'intimidating' and ignoring how traumatised she clearly is when really shes just trying to protect herself makes me sick to my stomach

"I feel these forbidden thoughts creep in sometimes without warning. Slow thoughts that always start quietly, like whispers you’re not even sure you’re hearing. And then they get louder and louder until they become every sound in the entire world. Thoughts that can’t be undone."

I'm kind of just guessing where I'm up to since there's no page numbers on the website but oh my god I forgot how awful mara could be to eden, especially on her birthday

'"Don’t say anything.” Because whatever he thinks I am, I’m not. And whatever he thinks my body is, it isn’t. My body is a torture chamber. It’s a fucking crime scene. Hideous things have happened here, it’s nothing to talk about, nothing to comment on, not out loud. Not ever. I won’t hear it. I can’t.'