Amy Triplet’s Reviews > Good Spirits > Status Update

“I don’t want to spend the rest of our time together waiting for for the end of it. Okay?”

“I’ve never cared very much about what’s fair and what’s not. It hasn’t mattered. I’ve taken what the universe has handed me and made the best of it. But I’m not sure how I’m going to smile through the heartbreak that’s coming….So I pack away the bruises I can already feel forming and do my best to exist in the moment.”

“Asking for things I want is still so difficult for me. Like using a torn muscle or putting weight on a bad knee.”

“Your heart. This foolish beautiful thing. It’s been bruised, hasn’t it?”
“But you still let it tug you forward, yeah? What a gift that is. To still wish and dream and want. To find the good. To wear it on your sleeve.”

“Because not even the people who are supposed to love me can find a way to do it. Because I’m so fucking tired of trying, only to come up short. All the time.”

“I’m so tired of people treating me like I’m dispensable, like my feelings don’t matter. That if the reality of me doesn’t line up with their expectations, I’m not worth their time or effort. The entirety of my life, I’ve had to listen to people vocalize their disappointment at how i haven’t measure up.”

“Helpful, easy, accommodating. I’ve given all of myself to the people around me, broken myself down into minuscule pieces to try to be exactly what everyone else had needed. I’ve tried to shape myself to other people’s expectations, but it’s only ever left me broken in the end.”

“I’d love to be loved that loud.”

“It feels good being here. It’s like-it’s like I’m absorbing some of her light.”