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“There’s a violence that baseball, at its best, disguises in a way that other sports leave out in the open. Baseball has a way of looking like fun even when it’s grueling. Eddie thinks that he had to get to the throat if the ugliness in order to play the game again. He had to see it for what it is. Maybe he had to find something to fight.”

Welcome back Yuna Hollander (the TV version).

IYKYK

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Oh mark darling!!!! You really are such a sad sack (/affectionate).

“He hadn’t expected to realize that the fondness he felt for the man next to him was love...It had felt so real it was nearly tangible, taking up actual space in his chest. He hadn’t known then that it would grow. That’s it would out down roots and fill up all the spaces inside him, fusing with flesh and bone until there wasn’t any way to separate it from the rest of him.”

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“And Mark is at home. He has no idea why that matters so much, why this feels fundamentally different from sex in a hotel room…It’s just—this apartment has always felt safe, protected. HIS. And this, what they’re doing, deserves that sort of safety.”

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Well fuck me i didn’t hi i I’d be sobbing about watch bands at 2:30 am 😭

“It’s not their fault. Mark doesn’t expect anyone to turn their lives upside down and open themselves to violence and persecution.

But that doesn’t mean he has to like it. It doesn’t even mean he has to stand for it.”

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“He never could have guessed the extent to which grief feels like an accounting error—he died at thirty-four? That can’t be right! Double-check your math. But now he’s thinking that what’s just as unfair as Mark losing William is a William losing this: an overpacked suitcase, the giddy thrill of someone waiting for him, something good about to happen.”

“Eddie alrea du knows it’s not going to go anywhere tonight; but it doesn’t need to. It’s just the taste of lemon and tonic on Mark’s lips, the feel of Mark’s thumbs striking his neck. It’s a good-night kiss, and it only ends when Eddie’s smiling too broadly to keep going.”

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“‘I thought you were beautiful! I couldn’t believe how beautiful you were.’ Beautiful and smart and a little mean, like he was made in a lab to lure Eddie to his doom. But instead of doom, it’s this: coffee and breakfast, a dog snoring on the carpet, the near certainty they’ll do this again.”

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