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She was moved to another hospital. Her friend (ig)) Joan was there. She still wanted to kill herself. Joan also tried suicide. Esther still didn’t feel good she didn’t like visits and yeah well didn’t like her mother and birthday l.

It’s starting to get really dark, Esther gets electro shocks and absolutely doesn’t like them. Her mother is also well, she judges people with mental illnesses. Esther started having suicidal thoughts and even cut herself. She decided to go to the Deer Island prison and went on a beach.

Esther has some serious psychological issues she couldn’t sleep, eat, read, didn’t shower or change her clothes. She went to Dr Gordon but he disappointed her. She also pretended to be Elly and wanted to go to Chicago and change her identity because she didn’t like the responsibility of her current life. Gordon told her to get electroshocks. And I guess she ran away now kinda…

Esther left New York and went home to Boston. She wasn’t accepted into a writing course for the summer school so she didn’t go at all. This chapter felt like her life was completely falling apart. Buddy fell in love with a nurse. She was stuck and didn’t know what to do, began writing a novel. There was so much which she thought she should do but absolutely didn’t want to. She got recommended a psychiatrist.

This chapter began with Hilda talking about how she was glad that the Rosenbergs were gonna die. Then Esther was taking her last photograph on the magazine while which she cried because she didn’t really know what she wanted to.Esther wanted to make Jay Cee proud. Then Doreen made Esther go out with her and her date became misogynistic Marco who almost raped her. In last scene Esther threw out her clothes.

Esther went to visit Buddy Williard a day after Christmas and he asked to marry her (at least want to). Buddy also wrote a poem which Esther didn’t like but didn’t want to hurt his feelings. She was again a feminist icon and said she never wanted to marry. He didn’t really like Esther for who she really was and was quite misogynistic. Then Buddy and Esther went skiing and she learnt to do it but broke her leg.

.Through this chapter l got to know Konstantin who looks like a chill guy again. Esther seems to like him and kind of wants to sleep with him. I can see that Esther is full of self doubt thinking of all the things she cannot do and of some of her mother’s expectations. We can see how unhappy she truly feels and has felt for most of her life. She had feminist ideas. She has thoughts of sex and chastity and etc. TLEO

It’s very interesting, I do not like the Buddy Williard, because he is completely two faced and his mother was an orthodox lady. I understood if he did it once as most people want to try it but I mean how could she have seduced him 30 times. He just plays this innocent boy who was seduced but I mean… He played that he was seduced and innocent but well he ofc liked it. He isn’t the right person for Esther.

Wow, Esther is sick and she is going on a meeting with Constantin. We get to know Buddy, who seems like a chill guy and Esther likes him but I have mixed feelings about him. He doesn’t like poetry.