Thursday Next > Status Update

Hi

Should I be trying again?

(To talk and not be silently shy)

I was thinking about trying to put something together for you for Valentine’s Day.

But then I realized that you may have plans for that day, with someone else.
And I ended up sick to my stomach.

I’ve been trying to shake that thought, but it’s not working because the whole thing feels like a very realistic possibility.

And I don’t know how to talk to you with that thought in my head.

If it’s accurate, I shouldn’t be talking to you at all.

I don’t know.
You can’t have both.

So as long as I feel convinced that you have someone else, there’s nothing left for me to say I guess.

You talk about there being another person far too often for me to be able to realistically hope that they don’t actually exist.

So if you have a person, and you have Valentine’s Day plans with them, you have no need of me this week.

See but a song like About You doesn’t address my aforementioned concerns.

You may not have forgotten about me, but that doesn’t preclude you from also being smack dab in the middle of a serious attachment with someone else.

And there’s no hope in Purple Rain.

I was impacted by Feel The Rush**, but I was still left with the same questions about your situation and intentions.

And I’m serious about my earlier implication that if you’re already otherwise attached, then we shouldn’t be interacting this week.

If you’re not single, don’t talk to me.

(And if you don’t talk to me, that’ll tell me I should be seeking out company elsewhere until at least the 15th, if not the 16th (because what if they spent the night and are just there all day Sunday?))

I don’t want to be confused about this anymore.

If you want my continued engagement, you need to be clear.