Thursday Next > Status Update

Hi love, starting my day

Crap this didn’t post:

“And yes, I passed out last night. I should have just signed off while I was still awake.

I’m gonna take care of business and be back in an hour or so.
Hope your Thursday is going well so far. :)
-h”

Sorry
:/

How are you?

(I’m looking through things)

I’ve seen:

12—
Hey Jude
11—
Say Yes To Heaven

9—
I Wanna Be Yours
Moh Moh Ke Dhaage*


5—
Ribs
SexOnTheBeat**
Hopelessly Devoted To You (x2)
Apple Cider*
Paparazzi*
Yards / Gardens**
Die For Me
Boss Bitch**
Tears
Headlock
505*
Everything is romantic
Everywhere
4—
<3
Lovergirl
Back To The Basics
Tumblr Girls
3—
The Perfect Girl*

Things were very busy about 5 hours ago

(Might be getting closer to 6 hours ago at this point)

Oh and there was a FN story ad with the theme song from The Nanny 😁

(Since I’m being thorough as per usual)

What am I going to do with you?

(Love you and keep you forever? Is that still the approved plan?)

and Phantom* recently got added

In another life, we’d be spending Saturday together.

What would you want for us to do?

(I’m asking myself the same question)

I mean, we could do pretty much anything and make it fun.

But I’m not sure what your feelings are about classically “romantic” activities and traditions.

I’d like to bake you something, if you were receptive.
(I’m a decent cook, but a better baker.)

Would heart-shaped spritz be too corny?

If the weather was going to be (relatively) nice, a lunch picnic sounds fun.

Ooh, how about a bookstore date?
Either shopping directly for one another, or both picking out our own things but then buying the other person what they found. :)

I don’t even know what your drinking preferences are anymore.

Do you like champagne🍾 ?
(I appreciate it, but it’s not a particularly special “favorite” to my personal palate.)

Wine? A mixed drink? No alcohol but something else instead?

I wonder if there are any noteworthy movies out with a romantic twist to them (I haven’t gone to a movie theater in forever).

Gotta sneak in snacks (wheelchairs are good for doing that).

I don’t even know if you have a favorite movie candy (I just know you’re picky about how you “spend” your calories for sweets. I’ve gotten the impression that noting mediocre is worth it for you).

*-nothing- mediocre is worth it for you

With advance notice, I probably would have been looking (starting weeks ago) for something unique and fun to do together.

(Unless you said you wanted to be the planner for the day. Because I’m not gonna step on toes and be a backseat-planner!)

The whole super-traditional gender roles thing where guys are expected to do all the planning has never sat well with me.

It’s more fun to trade off in some way,
so that both people get to plan/scheme/use their imagination to pick out cool things to do, and both people also get to be surprised and feel special.

Hmm how about something chocolate themed?

A tasting or a cooking class or fondue or something.

But it also doesn’t necessarily have to be anything remotely traditional or related to “Valentine’s Day” type of stuff.
Going to somewhere that is special to us or “romantic” because of a funny association is equally great, as an option.

(Shall I set up a dining area filled with “romance” in the form of battery operated tea lights?

Shall we get deep dish pizza because it has a nostalgic association for our shared history?

Shall I make you brownies and then have you compare them to sex, in order to tell me of the brownies are better?
(Your recipe is the one that’s infamous for being “better than sex”, though. But I’m loosely brainstorming and giving examples…))

It would be easier (and more fun) if we’d been in close contact and conversation in recent times, because I could come up with much more social and idiosyncratic ideas that would relate to those exchanges and also your interests of this exact moment in time.

(Maybe there’s a tv show that you’re really into right now, so me hunting down and finding a Special Edition of something or other related to that show would be meaningful to you as a current gift, for example…)

It’s (I think?) a little early for planting season, but perhaps seeds for something new you’ve been wanting to grow in your garden would be a fun addition to your collection of gifts for the day.
(Plus I could say something overly cheesy about wanting to watch our love grow like the seeds, and you could roll your eyes at me and laugh at how I’m being a dork.)

I had a thought a couple of weeks ago, one which I don’t think I ever shared.

I was thinking about how I had sent you that article about marrying “the guy who does all the things” (and told you that it made me think of you).

Well, my recent-ish thought was that you make me want to be the female version of that — the girl* who does all the things.

*but there’s not a great word that’s comparable to “guy”, which is annoying.
Girl? Woman? Gal? Lady? I dunno

And my following thought was something along the lines of this:
“That’s the kind of ‘power couple’ I’d actually like to be a part of — the guy and the gal who both do all the things. For each other, and for all of their loved ones.”

How great would that be?

That’s the sort of dream worth having, I think.

I would be lucky to get to find out what you are like as a boyfriend.
Because you’d be great; I know this.
I hope you know it too.

(You’ve probably already been told as much, by your “not the only one” person. Meh)

sigh
you probably despised it, many years ago, whenever I would mention the name of my (now) ex.
I’m sorry for that.
(It’s part of why I avoid saying his name now, although it’s also just because he’s no longer relevant in a way where using his name is necessary.)

I wish so badly that I could go back in time and do a bunch of things differently

I know it’s not the same, and I also know just how extremely belated I am…
but I’m trying to approach things differently now.

I hope that I’m not too late.

I don’t want to have anything but warmth between us.
Do you think it’s still possible for us to get (back) there?

Snow (Hey Oh)*
?

sigh

I wish I knew which things were literal vs. metaphorical.

Just so that I could understand you better and respond with greater resonance.

Love is a good reason to start fresh, though.

I know I believe that much, at least.

But I’m also still here for you if starting fresh doesn’t feel possible.

I want to be in your life (and have you in mine) no matter what.
I miss you too much for anything else to make sense.

I want to make sure you know that — you’re welcome here, always.

And if you are carrying any significant baggage, there’s always room for all of that stuff too.

I’m running out of words (but not feelings).

When I have more words to go with the feelings, I will share them.