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If I had chosen to be loved rather than to love, I would certainly have been a better mother.

I was with a man who loved me more than I loved him. Two years with Adrien, going to sleep before him every night; to years with no sadness but also with no passion. With my Husband, I knew immediately that it would be the inverse, that the power dynamic would be to his advantage.

There’s no couple where love is shared equally; it’s not possible. So we have to determine which kind of romantic life we’d like to lead: will we be the one who receives or the one who gives?

Only my dependency on love, rather than on one or the other of these men, was a constant

Even when he’s deep inside me, my husband is out of my reach. Even now, I still miss him so much. When he leaves my body, he leaves a gaping wound, a horrible void, a gash waiting to be infected

Never loved, though I thought I loved

My children are seven and nine. Does that mean they can finally do without my hugs? I wonder whether Zoe will think I’m a bad mother.