Janna’s Reviews > I Want to Trust You, But I Don't > Status Update

“Maybe the secret to really healing is to change the end goal…I could let the healing mad me into a healthier version of myself. Instead of focusing on all that was taken from me, maybe I could shift my focus to what this new season could give me.”

“I didn’t know how to force the part of me so bent over and broken to stand back up, replant my roots, and try to be like I was before. This trauma had changed so much about my life. And honestly, I was changed. I felt damaged, broken, and remade, but not for the better.”

“My desire to control - it’s an illusion…the most tender places of my heart. The ones that shake with fear because I can’t stand the thought of another awful thing being added to [my] story, keeps saying Please try [to control everything]. Because maybe this time you can hold it all together.’”

“The only thing certain is that life will be filled with the unexpected…but I still have this driving sense inside me that if I just know enough, worry enough, research enough, plan enough…stay ahead of things enough, and make sure everyone else is on the same page as me, then I can keep life going like it should go”

“What if a big part of our exhaustion and anxiety around hard circumstances, is that we are constantly trying to remove faith from our relationship with [God]?”

“It’s hard to move forward when what I really want is something from my distant past. Something that I can’t reach. That I can’t touch. But that is still very alive in my memories”

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“Trust takes time plus believable behavior, along with consistency, so a solid track record can be established”

“Hyper desire for safety can mean low levels of relational connection. Hyper desire for connection can mean low levels of safety”

“The line between healthy discernment and triggers caused by pain from the past is paper thin…is this a warning that could protect me? Or is this a war in my mind I need to work through?…I want to be wise so I can protect myself. But I also don’t want to cause those around me who are trustworthy to unfairly suffer through my suspicions fed by past betrayals”