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Guilt, grief, and pain were corrosive toxins in his veins, tearing him apart from the inside out. He let them, made them, because these memories were awful but they were things that made sense. That aching loss was all he knew and understood.

i feel like i want to hug him 😣

"Is this how you stayed quiet?" Neil reached up and took hold of Andrew's wrist. He couldn't feel the scars through the cotton sleeve but he didn't need to. He knew they were there. Andrew knew what he was talking about, judging by how still he went. His smile didn't even flicker but Neil wasn't fooled. "Did you do this so you wouldn't tell her the truth about her son?"

he had to find a way to survive :((

"There's more room to stretch out in back."
"Oh, you are right," Andrew said, but he got in front anyway. Neil watched his knuckles go white on the door as he leveraged himself into the car, but it wasn't until Andrew laughed and said, "Ouch," that Neil understood how much pain Andrew was still in.

bawling my fucking eyes out

He was wearing the fresh clothes Wymack had brought him, but even the hooded sweatshirt couldn't hide the mess Drake made of his face. Worse than the bruises and cuts was the brilliant smile Andrew still wore. Neil saw it and wanted to be sick.

hiding everything behind a smile is like dying inside. i wanna keep him safe in my pocket 😣

He was wearing the fresh clothes Wymack had brought him, but even the hooded sweatshirt couldn't hide the mess Drake made of his face. Worse than the bruises and cuts was the brilliant smile Andrew still wore. Neil saw it and wanted to be sick.

literally sobbing on the floor. my poor boy :((

"Looks like I was right about him after all. Or do you still think this is all a big misunderstanding? Go on, tell me again how I'm too unbalanced to understand normal brotherly affection and love. Tell me this is natural."

that mf didn't believe him when he said his adopted brother was raping him bc of his mental illness?? (and it is probably an undiagnosed and poorly treated bipolar disorder)... i'm gonna throw up

"I love him," Nicky insisted. "Doesn't that mean anything to you? Why can't you be happy for us? Why can't you give him a chance?"
"We cannot condone sin," Maria said.
"You don't have to love the sin," Nicky said, "but you're supposed to forgive and love the sinner. Isn't that what faith is about?"
"Faith is following our Lord's creed," Luther said.

praying for their deaths 🙏🏻🙏🏻

"Why are you so special?" Matt asked.
"I'm not," Neil said, confused.
"Andrew doesn't give ground to anybody. Why does he keep saying yes to you?"

these andreil hints 🚬🚬🚬

He had to trust that they were all there, safe and having fun. He was content to watch and imagine.
Lonely, too, but there was nothing he could do about that.

neil josten i feel you so deeply in my bones

"I'm not the brightest crayon in the box, but I'm not the dullest, either. I've figured out by now you've got all the trust issues of a stray tom cat. But sooner or later you're going to have to let someone in."
"Can I study now?"

he's me, i'm him