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"...I'm exhausted. Not just from pretending, but from the pain itself, from the effort of holding it in, of trying to make my grief more palatable."

"And somewhere past the initial shock waves of hurt and grief is fear. I've lived my whole life without a dad, but I've always had my mom. She's been there through everything. She is - was my best friend, my confidant, my cheerleader...And now that she's gone, I don't know how to do life without her. I don't know how to live without my vital organ."

"Since the accident, I've had a hard time enjoying things the way I used to. The sun never feels as warm, colours not as bright. Even music and movies and books I used to love have lost some of their flavour, as if I'm moving through a blander, less vibrant version of the world - a world without my mom in it. A world I'm no longer sure how to navigate."

"...I feel like her death has hit me much harder than everyone else. Like I've lost a vital organ while everyone else is nursing a few cuts and bruises."

"I glance up and down the table, surveying the faces of my siblings and grandparents, wondering if anyone else feels it too. The sharp edges of grief. The sting of her absence. But everyone looks excited, happy even, and I can't help feeling like all the air is evaporating from my lungs."