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Knowing I needed to do this to stabilize my mind before the switch came, I fixated on a particularly fleshy part of my upper thigh and went to town on myself, carving, cutting, and soothing my soul with every rough drag of the blade.

Unable to stand another second of looking at the person I loathed most, I quickly opened the cabinet door.
Retrieving my faithful razor, I climbed into the bath and draped a leg over the side.

Exhaling a strangled breath, I clutched the porcelain sink and stared at my reflection.
A stranger stared back at me.
A whore had stolen my face.
"Good girls stay still and take it. Only whores fight back. You don't want to be a whore, do you, munchkin…”

Collapsing on the couch beside them, I broke down to the two lads that had been by my side since childhood and tried my damn hardest to drink myself into oblivion.

"Because she had a choice. Gibs, and she chose to ruin us"

COULDN'T BREATHE.
I couldn't think straight.
I couldn't fucking stop crying.
How my heart remained beating, I would never understand, because shed splattered it all over my bedroom wall.
The image of my teammate between her legs, pounding his dick into her made me want to lose my mind.

"It's too late, Liz," he said, backing away from me. "There's no coming back from this."
"I love you!" I screamed after him. "You're my best friend! How am I supposed to be without you?"
"Maybe you should have thought about that" was all Hugh replied before he turned around and walked away.

"This is over" Hugh repeated, voice cracking as he sucked in a shaky breath. "You can stay in my house tonight, and I'll stay with Gibs, but you need to be gone in the morning." He sucked in a trembling breath and roughly wiped his tears away. "And you need to delete my number from your phone."