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I hated the mountains and the hills, the rivers and the rain. I hated the sunsets of whatever colour, I hated its beauty and its magic and the secret I would never know. I hated its indifference and the cruelty which was part of its loveliness. Above all I hated her. For she belonged to the magic and the loveliness.She had left me thirsty & all my life would be thirst and longing for what I had lost before I found it

If I was bound for hell let it be hell. No more false heavens. No more damned magic. You hate me and I hate you. We’ll see who hates best. But first, first I will destroy your hatred. Now. My hate is colder, stronger, and you’ll have no hat to warm yourself. You will have nothing.

It’s she can’t see the sun any more. Only you she see. But all you want is to break her up.

But I love this place and you have made into a place I hate. I used to think that if everything else went out of my life I would still have this, and now you have spoilt it. It’s just somewhere else where I have been unhappy, and all the other things are nothing to what has happened here. I hate it now like I hate you and before I died I will show you how much I hate you.’

‘Get up, girl, and dress yourself. Woman must have spunks to live in this wicked world.’

‘I love it more than anywhere in the world. As if it were a person. More than a person.’
‘But you don’t know the world,’ I teased her.

‘What I see is nothing – I want what it hides –that is not nothing.’

As for my confused impressions they will never be written. There are blanks in my mind that cannot be filled up.

And the woman is a stranger. Her pleading expression annoys me. I have not bought her, she has bought me, or so she thinks....I have sold my soul or you have sold it, and after all is it such a bad bargain? The girl is thought to be beautiful, she is beautiful. And yet …

I woke next morning knowing that nothing would be the same. I would change and go on changing.