Jules’s Reviews > The Book of Disquiet > Status Update

“here lies my life, a conscious ghost of a paradise i never knew, a stillborn corpse of my unrealized hopes. happy those who suffer as unified selves—whom anxiety alters but doesn’t divide, who believe at least in unbelief, and who can sit in the sun without mental reservations!”

my first major disagreement! i am not yet nihilist enough to look down on those trying as a collective to improve material conditions. i’m finding pessoa’s remarks about revolutionaries and humanitarianism quite nauseating. i admire his honesty, but that’s as far as my appreciation goes on this topic… he is just a Man at the end of the day.

i fucking love this guy. he’s so dramatic about everything. he spends his time complaining about christianity, daydreaming that he is julius caesar, and envisioning a frightening scene of thundered destruction where his boss emerges as a zombie. and he always has a stomachache. he’s just like me fr