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“I never actually did hate you,” he breathes. His eyes open to lock with mine as his hands cup my face. “I’m incapable of anything but loving you. That’s my flaw.”

“But when you love something,” he continues, “you love it for all that it is. You don’t love it despite its flaws. You love it because of those flaws.”

“I hated that I couldn’t fucking hate you. I hated you for making me love you, and never once releasing me from your spell, no matter what you did or said.”

“You wrote down your worst thoughts in that dairy,” he growls. “Just like people posting the best versions of themselves on social media, you took all your horrible parts and put them in that book to get them out of your head.”

“Your name is Lark Marchetti, and I have loved you with every piece of me since the moment I met you.”

“It’s like he’s staring into my soul to make sure I’m okay. To let me know that he’s here for me and not going anywhere. I’ve never felt that before. Ever.”

“So no, I don't think I’m broken because I want far from vanilla things in the bedroom.”

“Lithium, for my bipolar disorder. Risperidone, a mood stabilizer. Zoloft, an antidepressant. Lorazepam to counter panic attacks, or to help with sleep. Lexapro and Buspirone for anxiety.”

“Everything might be spiraling out of control right now, but at least I don’t hate myself like I used to. I might not like myself all the time, but I’ve learned to put away the hate.

Mostly.”