Nabila Chowdhury’s Reviews > Study for Obedience > Status Update
Nabila Chowdhury
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"to my teachers, in whose presence I steadfastly refused to say the bracha over our classroom Sabbath ceremonies each Friday afternoon. It was the one act of defiance I allowed myself in childhood, and it came to define me, no matter how hard I worked to be good, so long as I persisted in this unaccountable refusal to join in, the light of grace was and would continue to be withheld from me."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:37PM
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Nabila Chowdhury
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"In the bowl of the lake, my voice came back to me, and it sounded closely – it was more intimate than ever. I spoke and listened to myself at length as I watched the dark shapes move under the thinning ice."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:39PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"Over the course of my life, so much of which I had spent in solitude, I developed a habit of speaking aloud, to myself or to my surroundings: at times this was to offer encouragement, some kind word to help me carry on, in spite of it all; at others to offer observations on the passage of time."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:39PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"And yet there it was: presence and absence twisting together."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:39PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"And so although I walked in the forest nearly every day of the year, I felt perpetually estranged from it, as indeed I had felt estranged from most of the settings in which I had found myself over the course of my life."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:38PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"It was as if I had been living my life against the backdrop of a roaring noise that I had not known was there and that had ceased suddenly and absolutely. My perceptions turned outward."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:38PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"For my part I learned that nobody got what they deserved."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:37PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"I learned early on that money could clean you up and make you anybody."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:37PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"My people: for yes, they were that, I had to admit it, after years of denial, of immersing myself among strangers, if I had learned anything it was that I had no people if not them, and yet over the course of my adult life, and although I searched high and low, there never seemed to be any around."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:36PM
Nabila Chowdhury
is 21% done
"The work of family, the domestic order. A problem. I went back to the beginning, starting the process again. Over and over. It was my practice and I repeated it often, particularly at such times as there was no one to remind me of that crucial and fundamental thing, the void at the centre of the work."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:12PM
Nabila Chowdhury
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"The problem, I felt, was that I had, at a certain point, without noticing it, departed from the basic principle of my own wrongdoing on which my practice of doing good ought to have been based."
— Jun 16, 2026 04:12PM
