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"I chose to do this work because the work, to me, is sacred. It has a moral weight."

"Redemption’s a huge part of being a cop. Sometimes we’re solving cases and helping punish crooks, and sometimes we’re helping the criminals to turn their lives around. It is a privilege to play a part in someone’s absolution."

"In this case, I played by the rules. I shut my mouth. You don’t fucking do this on my watch, I think. This doesn’t fucking happen. I won’t make the same mistakes again."

"Once, when I was sick in bed, Pam tried to put an arm around me but I pushed her away. I didn’t want her to see me when I was ill. She told me my weakness is that I will not accept weakness, in others or myself."

"Previtera gets 20 years, but I wonder if it might not have been longer. This was an awful murder. Did the judge let Previtera off relatively lightly to demonstrate that he won’t be affected by these new Victim Impact Statements? I don’t know the answer. We don’t get to ask questions of the judges, but it is as if someone has inserted a knife and opened up another chink in my respect for the court process."

"Given what I have seen in the police, I know by now that my own dad was right to teach me toughness, but I will do things differently with Jake. I will make him tough, but I will also hug him. I'll celebrate his achievements. I will tell my son I love him."

"Am I a tough guy, or do I only care about my reputation? Am I actually a coward? Have I let myself down? Have I let my dad down, even though he didn’t see me? Trevor is gone. I look around. No one has seen us. I decide never to talk about it, ever. It is my secret. I’ll think about that moment constantly. It drives me. It dictates how I live my life from that day forward."