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“He longed for her more than he could say. It was a wonderful thing to be able to truly want someone like this - the feeling was so real, so overpowering. He hadn’t felt this way in ages. […] He didn’t want to let that feeling slip from his grasp. Once lost, he might never happen across that warmth again. If he had to lose it, he would rather lose himself.”

“Finally, as if lured in by the melody, images flashed behind his eyelids, one after the next, appearing, then disappearing. A series of images without concrete form or meaning, rising up from the dark margins of consciousness, soundlessly crossing into the visible realm, only to be sucked back into the margins on the other side and vanish once again.“

“Tsukuru remembered those days in college when all he’d thought about was dying. […] Back then he was convinced that if he merely focused on what was going on inside of him, his heart would finally stop of its own accord. [… c]ontrary to his expectation, his heart didn’t stop. The heart apparently doesn’t stop that easily.”

“What they sought from him was the Tsukuru of old, a person he had left behind and no longer needed. To revive that person, and present him to his family, necessitated that he play a role that made him uncomfortable.”