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gosh i feel like i'm not reading this fast enough- 😵‍💫🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

"Anytime I think I am a semidecent person, I remember this story someone told me once about her ex-husband. [...] He never came home when he said he would, [...] he had a rule that if anyone asked him for help he would pause to see what that person needed. [...] Sometimes it was money, sometimes food; once a man needed a belt and he gave him his. [...] They broke up because he was a mean drunk, but still.

"Sometimes now with students there are these moments when it feels like a sudden cold wind blew through. So lately I've been checking that my sweater is buttoned right, that my T-shirt isn't too weird. I'm like a woman carrying a full cup into a room of strangers, trying not to spill it."

"One morning a student tells me failure is not an option and is angered when I laugh. I assume a cheerful manner. I tell her, Hey, me too, I used to have plans! Biggish ones, medium at least. She stares at me. Sorry? she says. After she goes, I slip into the bathroom, make sure I don't have lipstick on my teeth."

*i didn't mean my phone being stolen

"She tells me that her phone was stolen and she's been using a really old one instead. She won't get the newest model, she's decided. "So I just go at a slower pace. I know I'm missing things because I can't respond quickly enough to what people say or show me, but that's okay. It gives me more time to think," she says."

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MY DREAM

"My mother told me once that each thing, each being, has two names. One is the name by which it is known in this world and the other is a secret name that it keeps hidden. But if you call it by this name it cannot help but respond. This is the name by which the creature was known in the Garden of Eden."

"We order grilled cheese sandwiches and eavesdrop on the people at the next table. "Is he your soul mate?" the woman asks her friend.
"Hard to tell," she says."

""Some things are in the air, they float around," she says, and I think of leaves, of something falling and accumulating without notice."