Ferris Mx’s Reviews > Boring Asian Female > Status Update

Now it wasn't just the most extreme leftists who believed Laura had authored the post; the moderately extreme leftists were also starting to come around.

I took out my phone so I could look down and hide my face. Of course, this initiated a domino effect. It was an unspoken rule: it's rude to look at your phone when you're hanging out with your friends, but it's not rude if someone else does it first. The four of us sat in silence for a couple of minutes as we each responded to our texts and checked our notifications.

Was I seriously considering having a baby to get into law school? That was an insane plan, even for me.

That was where you ran into the catch-22. Universities didn't want the students who were trying to game the system; they wanted students who were genuine. Who weren't desperate. They didn't want the items on your resume to appear like they had come effortlessly, but they weren't supposed to be too effortful either. If genuine passion made you interesting, then it was desperation that made you boring.

Eunjin's love was different; it was a love that required no justification or conditions, like the way you would love a human being, perhaps a child or a spouse. It was symptomatic of a larger difference: Most things I loved were means, not ends. Most things she loved were ends, not means.

I wondered what it was like to love a discipline as a first principle. Even my love of Harvard Law was predicated on external reasons: to prove to my dad that I had accomplished everything he had dreamed for me, and to prove to everyone from my high school that I had made it further than they ever could. Absent Harvard's status, I couldn't have cared less about the school.