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[I never believed death dissolves loneliness or sadness… The idea makes death and parting with my loved ones easier, because even in death, we might meet again. I'll wait, quietly, without pleading or rushing. I've heard that time is relative, and I hope that a hundred years on Earth feels like ten days in the afterlife. I want to believe in a place where after waiting only ten days, I get to see you again.]

[I would spend a lifetime waiting and wondering where he was and what he was doing. I could… be unhappy with a life gained by losing him, every little flaw a reminder of my punishment for leaving him. And every hint of happiness ignored for thoughts of him. He already lived in my mind, when I was happy and when I was sad. I wanted to live with him, not with my thoughts of him.]

My fucking heart. This is my grief.

[Are those who fire the guns and take the bullets ever those who start the war?]

Maybe I shouldn’t be reading this in the wake of my own painful break-up with a partner. Because this is hitting my grief buttons every-other page. x_x

[I used to think death was the end, but my mind is still here. I wish I could take the burden of my body with me and leave her only my heart. I wish she could eat my love for her. I remember everything: our first kiss, so sweet and silly, and all the nights spent reminiscing about it.]

[He spoke less and his voice was weaker. Even his actions were, how to put it, oddly stunted. It was as if the rest of his body had continued growing and forgotten his heart somewhere inside, like a huge sheet of paper crumpled into a tiny ball.]

[I guess she's forgotten me.
I doubt she thinks about me before bed.
She probably sleeps like a baby.
I convinced myself of it.
I was both comforted and crushed that she was sleeping so well. I guess I still couldn't figure myself out, but Dam would get it. She helped me understand myself.]

R E L A T A B L E A F .

[I pressed her about this "darkness," wanting to know what she meant, until she finally snapped at me. I burst into tears.

"Is it so sinful to not know something?"

"Sometimes what you need is time, not an easy answer. The things you don't understand now will start to make sense in time. Ignorance isn't a sin, but impatience can be."]