Ally’s Reviews > Both/And: Essays by Trans and Gender-Nonconforming Writers of Color―A Moving Anthology Celebrating Joy, Heartbreak, and Self-Discovery > Status Update

"Futures" - A.L. Major: This is the obvious closer given its very lovely vision of a Black trans future as a living elder, even among environmental and economic devastation and failing to achieve all of the world-repair one sets out to do. The rest of the essay didn't make much of an impression on me - mostly generic non-binary journey stuff - but that ending is incredibly beautiful.

"In My Worst Nightmares, My Father Transitions" - Kaia Ball: Loved how this bookended the Addie Tsai essay, both looking at unspoken parental queerness. This one is formally really interesting, ranging between vignette to more extended examination to poetic flight, some really nice craft on display. And wonderfully specific in the emotions it invokes. Perhaps still proxy-fighting with the author's parents too much.

"An Incomplete History of Trans Immortality" - Zeyn Joukhadar: This one was bonkers and I LOVED IT. (And beautifully read with appropriately escalating over-the-top-ness.) Mixes art & saints & Inanna (though 'gala' were referred to as 'galli' - first is Sumerian, second unrelated Romans) & lichen. Gorgeous. Also weirdly precarious for a dude with a PhD, but they spoke enough from 1st-person-plural it was forgivable.

"Gender Euphoria Is a Power Source" - Caro De Robertis: Probably my second-least-favorite essay: wild how the light-skinned upper-class non-binary transmasc professor projects so much more anxiety about the violence & precarity they feel they face than any of the Black trans women.

"All Power to the People" - Raquel Willis: Recounting of a particular protest against Eric Adams, centers on Willis' speech at the event. Bog standard rah rah activist essay (without any juicy reflection on how the event actually came together or how the group conceived of its impact, the parts I'm most interested in as an organizer). She is a badass, though, and somewhere this collection has to talk politics, so ok.

"Lusus Deux" - Autumn Fourkiller: Portrait of a childhood/adolescent PCOS-like hormonal issue. Writing was a bit stunt-y (direct & confrontational reader address, playing with the withholding of information, fragments) & I don't think that had much effect. Was grateful for a representation of this category of experience in this collection though, & I felt for the writer.

"Becoming Femme" - Tanais: Oof, I hated this one, and it felt very long. It gender-essentialismed, bad-poly-ed, and straight-leaning-bi-lesbian-fetishized all the heck over me. Orientalist in the fearless way only a rich brown person from Carbondale, IL could be. Shapeless & directionless in form. Ends with a believable story of how the author drove off all their female friends with pettiness.

"Speaking My Language" - Edgar Gomez: The way Gomez fits the trans/gnc umbrella is subtle & doesn't show up much in this piece - the personal anecdote here is a gay guy cruising in a maybe-not-gay bar reassured by 'latinx' on a sticker. Most of the piece is rehashing the latinx/latin/latine/latin@/latino/hispanic debates at a pretty 101 level, plus a lightning-speed non-specific queer childhood retelling. Meh for me.

"Redemption Slayage" - Denny: Written well but also very baby-trans-feeling, not conscious that many of the presentation pressures discussed here as transfeminine pressures exist for many other people, missing nuance toward the many many different forms & strategies of passing & beauty that exist & their implications. Liked spending time with this writer, though.

"Trick" - Meredith Talusan: another one intended for a trans audience, I really liked this one & the specificity / tenderness / risk with which it treated gender identity. (The sex was read weirdly flatly - not at all like Talusan's reading & writing style! - in the audiobook.) I dunno why I always get jump-scared by Boston-in-a-time-period-I-lived-there showing up but that intensified the experience of this one.