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I am assaulted by the delirious notion that I wasted my time at university… This realization gives way to a series of symptoms: a stabbing pang in the chest… another kind of pain that is slippery rather than stabbing and radiates to every extremity of my body like a weighty, ravenous sorrow... This must be like the pain that follows an abortion, the residual sadness of a life unlived, clinging clawlike to life.
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It dawned on me that the apartment might be a front, that in a back room somewhere, a hoard of pretty girls was possibly gagged and bound, hands and feet tied together with one long, improbably knotted rope. My mouth went dry. What would become of me? I wasn't even pretty!
— 20 hours, 58 min ago
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Brigitte represented what I imagined my future would have looked like if my aunt hadn't put me out on the street: a lifetime pensioner with an autistic dog as her only companion.
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what do u do when ur suicidal but have ocd about how u die
— 21 hours, 17 min ago
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"Now what?" I wailed. "I've lost five years of my life! It's too late to switch to a degree in fine arts." At twenty-three, it's too late for everything. Not until our forties do we realize there's still time. Maybe not for everything, but at least for everything that matters.
— Aug 22, 2026 05:22AM
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Still, I couldn't seem to fall in love. I basically made friends, most of whom ended up as my lovers. Now and then, a lover would fall in love with me and I'd have the impression that life was staring me dead in the eye in its most unflattering wig.
— Aug 22, 2026 05:21AM
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ok finally reading the actual one
first page made me nervy bc it was like poetry and incomprehensible but the whole thing is just weird & suicidal so getting used to it
— Aug 22, 2026 05:21AM
first page made me nervy bc it was like poetry and incomprehensible but the whole thing is just weird & suicidal so getting used to it