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We’re quiet for a bit and I try to picture her somewhere in Virginia not seeing the maple come to life in front of our house every spring. It’s been so long since she’s heard Christopher’s laugh that she probably doesn’t remember it. She’s never even met Gus. She lost out.

I let out a sob. Something about how desperately I want to know Gus is okay every day for the rest of my life and the fact that she just up and left us releases the deepest, ugliest rage in my heart. It’s the rage that sits at the bottom with the bile. I have always felt sad and dismayed by the choice she made, but sitting here inside the full force of a mother’s love, I cannot fathom her leaving.

One thing about caretakers is they are never carefree. Without our cares, we’d just be takers like everyone else.