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He copies the lines that he can read and tries to put in the missing words but he fails. He’s able to sleep and he wakes up in the morning and no longer feels dread.

He feels safer there than in this house. Then he connects his brain to the garrett because he knows nothing about either. He cannot answer metaphysical questions about himself. He tries to pry open the shame book and fails. He lights a taper and tries to read it. What words he can read awaken in him spiritual sensations. He thinks they are poesm with ideas but he doesn’t understand them.

Like a madman, he flees through the wide, open garrett, down the winding staircase, and down passages and stairs, bumping into things on the way. He feels like he is being chased. He sits the library out of breathe. He thinks the garrett is a brooding brain and he vows never to go up those stairs again. He fears the mysterious dwellers can pop in at any time. He wants to build a nest on a peak in the Alps.

After the raven walked away, the man wonders if he’s dead. He knows he’s a nobody and he wonders what he can do. Then he does something. He tries to follow the raven but sees and then smells a pine wood. He sees something shimmering between two trees and heads toward it, but stumbles into the garrett, just as the raven had said. He sees the eagle perched on top of the mirror and flees the room.

The raven-librarian thanks him for admitting he exists. If God is I AM THAT I AM, then it is important for us to know who he is and who we are. The raven says first you know that you are and then you know what you are. The raven fears the man arrived in this region before he is ready. He has to feel at home before he can go both in and out (however, he can do one or the other). Is this parody because of nonsense?

The man says he’s himself, but the raven asks how he knows he’s not his father or a fool. Suddenly he realizes he’s forgotten his name (Genesis). He also realizes he doesn’t know who he is either so he asks the raven who he is. The raven shape-shifted into the librarian-form and back to raven. He tells the raven he knows he’s the old librarian but he doesn’t know his name. He apologizes for thinking he’s a raven.

He can begin to feel at home but doing something. Until he feels at home, it is hard to get either in or out. This sounds like philosophy. The raven says he’s stumbled in and maybe he can stumble out. When asked if he goes out, the raven says only briefly because their world is smug and childish. The man wonders if man is superior but the raven says he takes man or bird as he finds them. The raven asks who he is.

His mind tells him it’s impossible. He feels like he’s in a dream. It can’t be real but it is. He confused and tells the raven he did not come through a door. The ravens says he’s seen several doors in, but not doors out. This is his first. The more doors he goes out, the further he goes in. The man asks where he is but the raven says he’s can’t do that until he begins to feel at home. Any answer is meaningless.

Ch. 3 He recognizes nothing and wonders if it is all an illusion but he sees, hears, and feels things. He wanders toward the raven but realizes it would be ridiculous to seek counsel from it. He wonders how he went from order to lawlessness. He asks how he got here and the raven tells him through a door (talking animals). He’s terrified that the raven is like a human and he feels despair at seeing the shadowy thing.

Fairyland!!! Heathy and desolate (very gothic). Moorland followed by hills followed by mountain ranges. He looks into the picture to see the texture of a stone in the foreground and is startled to see an actual raven looking for worms. He presses too far into the picture and he is there (Voyage of the Dawn Treader). I’m loving this!!!!