Shannon’s Reviews > Left of Forever > Status Update

Whoah. He has a 17 Hour drive.
He says he spends every second of it coming to accept that he’s still in love with his wife

Ellis is a freak! What. lol.
He was thinking about the last time the bad sex. Like vividly. Haha. And then he had to pull off the side of the road and came in his pants. Haha. So much yearning.

He says that he hates that her merely writing the word sex on a paper does something to him. He said sex with her is always poor. Just more.

Silas just realizes that he’s been missing. He tells him he’s just been getting caught up on things. Silas says you’ve definitely lying. But do you want to get a beer so they’re getting one tomorrow
He wants to know why things fell apart and why he still misses her so much

He said they were walking around on emotional eggshells. He said by the time she wanted out he was so goddamn tired he did too.

Oh no, he says that they had fertility issues. 36 negative test. And then they got pregnant. And then she almost died on the hospital table because it turned out to be ectopic. He said he didn’t wanna try again and got a vasectomy
Things only got worse, and the weight of her resentment became a living breathing thing.
That her mom got sick and distance grew between them.

Oh, he said he knew when she referred to his brother that she actually met his. That’s so sweet that she calls his brothers her brothers.

He’s such a good guy.
He said he feels sick. It was a terrible ideal stealing this connection this way

She said, even the most consuming love doesn’t necessarily mean happiness in the end. She said I can attest to that. I can look back on everything now and see the beauty in my own personal history & the good things it gave us & yet I can’t pinpoint where it ultimately died.
She said she thinks the sex was ruined by the end. It was great, but it also felt like a crutch for connecting when they weren’t otherwise