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“We want what we can’t have and you are unobtainable. The good parts of you are fleeting and persuasive. I want to keep you safe forever. But even more than the pain and desperation is the relief. It’s finally over.”

“There comes a time when we must make a choice.”
“It was my fault. I shouldn’t have put you in harms way. I tried.”
“I met them, the twins. In them, I see me and you. Those women, those sisters, I see what we could have been. Their love and fear and panic all intertwined. I understand them because we are them.”
“Because hurting them would destroy us. Hurting them is hurting us.”

“The darkness in your eyes I realize is not the presence of something but the absence of light, like all the good has been sucked out of you and you’re hollow.”

“Anything for you, I think.”

“Regardless of how I’m feeling, nothing could be more painful than loving the dead.”

“‘At what cost will you stay the same Cassie?’ I shift to find her staring at me. ‘If change is what you need then it’s only natural to give into it. We all change and grow. You can’t resist it just because there’s comfort in the known.’
‘Pain is good right? It reminds you that you loved someone well enough.’”

“She acted strange. I wanted to ask, felt an irrepressible need to know. But something stopped me. What if I didn’t really want to know? What if allowing her to tell me would just exacerbate all that she was feeling? In that same vain, what if I didn’t have the strength to pretend any longer? The pain forms until my whole body is throbbing. It takes physical effort to know there’s hurting and not help.”