Ryan > Status Update

So. I haven’t been doing that great lately. Things were looking up for a while, which, of course, caused my mental illness to flare up again. Because when things are finally going your way, you can count on irrationality and panic to completely ruin all of it. My depression, my anxiety, my OCD, everything – they all came crashing back, full force. I want to be back online so badly. I miss sharing my thoughts on books. I miss making friends, and writing reviews, and simply being a part of a community. But logging in to my account again made me start to hyperventilate, and even just typing this update is making my heart beat way too fast. But I am trying to get over this. I’m still fighting. I’m still living. Hopefully one day I’ll be back, and I’ll be able to do the things I want to do. Until then, I just wanted to thank you for being so understanding and supportive. It means so much to me. I want to reply to all of your comments, but unfortunately, this update is all my anxiety will allow me at the moment, and I feel absolutely awful about it. You are all such amazing people, and I’m so lucky to know you guys. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to thank you all enough for your kind words, nor will I ever be able to explain how sorry I am for being gone for so long, I really feel terrible about it. Now I’ve got to post this before I panic and back out (again). So that’s it for now. Until next time, friends <3
- Ryan

*thumbs up*🌞

Aye, mental illness is no joke! You take as much time to recover. We will all be here when you get back! <3

Don't worry! Your mental health is more important to focus on rn! Take your time <3

hoping you feel better soon

Take as much time as you need <3

Take care of yourself Ry and don't worry about us, we'll be here when you're ready. Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way. <3

I miss you like crazy ❤️

We will be around when you get back! Sending good vibes and lots of hugs! Miss you!

❤️❤️❤️ You're fighting a battle. Take all the time and space you need for yourself. We'll be here! Sending you good vibes!

We love you Ryan. And when you are ready come back!

Hope you feel good soon!

Stay strong! things will be okay xx feel better soon 💛

Take your time, Ryan. We'll be all here for you when you come back, so take as much time as you need. You're so strong & brave. Sending lots of love 💖💖