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Alone in my apartment, I press my back against the door and
slide to the ground and sit there for a long time. I don’t cry, but I
don’t feel very much alive, either
— Jul 27, 2022 10:24PM
slide to the ground and sit there for a long time. I don’t cry, but I
don’t feel very much alive, either
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Niki
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No, I tell myself. You’re your biggest obstacle. Meet him
halfway.
CRYINGG
— Jul 27, 2022 10:32PM
halfway.
CRYINGG
Niki
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I’m used to sad things. I’ve experienced sadder—my parents—
but it doesn’t soften the blow. Things are sad in different ways.
My breakup with Darien was sad in the soft and quiet way, and
Darien kissing Kate on the front page of People was sad in a
bitter, twisting way. Frank’s death is like a window cracking. It’s
sharp and sudden and terrible.
— Jul 27, 2022 09:13PM
but it doesn’t soften the blow. Things are sad in different ways.
My breakup with Darien was sad in the soft and quiet way, and
Darien kissing Kate on the front page of People was sad in a
bitter, twisting way. Frank’s death is like a window cracking. It’s
sharp and sudden and terrible.
Niki
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My chest still hurts, though, in the way things always hurt
when you do the hard thing.
— Jul 27, 2022 09:08PM
when you do the hard thing.
