Maria Vargas > Status Update

“I can’t do this anymore, Lu.”
I open my eyes. “Do what?”
“Stay in this limbo. It’s like I’m not allowed to live, even though I’m not dead yet. And to watch you slip through my fingers, even though I love you. Even though we’re meant to be…”

OOOOOH SAAAAAAAM 😭😭😭

When my claws withdraw, I run my tongue along his broken flesh until it seals over. And then I cry. Big, huge sobs. Because I’ve done it again—I’ve marked a man who doesn’t want me. I might even be pregnant.

OMG Lu marked Sam… does Sam knows what that means?! 😭😭😭

“Lu, I could never be your alpha—”
I kiss him. Sam underestimates me. I’m an artist. I can take one beautiful moment and recreate it a million times. All I need is one hour of happiness.

I’m emotionally destroyed 😭😭😭

In my favorite, most desperate fantasy, Sam adopted Mary, and he took care of us. I know it isn’t good to dream about a man swooping in and fixing everything about my life. But God, that fantasy felt good.

I can’t 💔😭💔

“I’m sorry. It’s just that this is the last time we’ll be meeting, and I thought it might be nice.” I’m such a fool. What did I expect would happen? That Sam would magically fall in love with me, when he’s clearly never going to date again? I always want men who don’t want me back.

I wasn’t planning on going to bed crying tonight 😭💔