★ Kei⟢’s Reviews > I'll Always Be With You > Status Update

okay but what on the earth am i actually reading? i can’t….. i had hopes for this book bc i apparently loved amkiyl but what is this……. the main leads are so immature and stupid it PAINS me. they’re in this constant bickering pattern where they supposedly hate but absolutely yearn for each other. it makes me lose my mind bc obviously you’re so attracted to each other. even head over heels? and i’m all for enemies to lovers but this? this is childish. it’s straight up immature. carolina is always saying things like oh i hate you stay away from me but then she goes on and seeks for him????? like she doesn’t want him there but then when he’s gone she goes to find him and then sticks her nose up his businesses??? HUH…? one moment they’re throwing useless and weird and not even good insults to each other the next they’re fingering and sucking each other????? What???? where did that come from? where’s the adult conversation in that? why u saying stay away from me and then a second later ur baring your everything to him and wanting to explore every inch of steamy details with him??? The man you supposedly hate bc he lied to u??? And i feel that the reason she hates him is also not that big to be feeling so much for. like ok, he lied to u and all but then he explained his reasoning and then it’s like his words just flew over ur head just like that? ur just constantly in ur own head thinking i h8 him sm get away from me but oh he makes me feel this way SO UHHHHH there’s no good mutual understanding or conversation or deep emotional connection??? it’s just u being in your own thoughts and worrying about ur own emotions when clearly it’s a 2 person thing. It’s 2 way girl. Writing this makes me even more fed up. And ohmygosh the extent they go to to make each other jealous. Especially west. HUHHHHvbbb?!!!? Bro almost had sexy time with a girl he utterly disliked just to get back at carolina?????? He could’ve just faked it bc it’s not like she was gonna walk past and hear all ur sounds or see u doing it… well yeah duh obviously in the book the writer will make it happen but boy…. It’s not worth it. U could’ve just lied to her or something even if u take girls’ virginity for a living. (Jokes. That’s probably an exaggeration but it still speaks my point) but ok ended up he didnt and carolina voila happened to walk past and thats how she started banging on the door and threatening to tell the principal about their quickie helppp😭 and then ok he pulls her in and she finds out the girl is not there then uh i thought something GREAT was about to happen something to make up for the lack of emotions and plot but then what did i get? Such an anti climax for real. I would’ve been on my knees for this scene if there was more to it bc im a sucker for steams in locations like these and it felt exciting, but obviously no. But ok after that there’s something else a supposedly round 2 BUT WHAT WAS EVEN THATTTTT ok fine it was better than the first one cos carolina was exploring but no wheres the actual juice?????! Juice not just from west’s semen but actual juice?!!??!! I dont get it how they suddenly turn from icking each others skin sm especially carolina to suddenly wanting to expose her most vulnerable parts to him gorl make it MAKE SEEENSSEEEEE and then why is west lowkey s***shaming girls? Boy why? No matter how annoying she is u shouldnt do that eh? But we all know how messed up the boys from lancaster prep series are😭 i dont know how i enjoyed amkiyl sm. Ig bc it was my first steamy novel my expectations and standards were rock bottom. Now ive been exposed to amazing writing i just question why do books like these exist. Or why i even choose to pick it up. Or why i even expose myself to all these horrendous stupidity. And if you’re gonna write bickering enemies to lovers who are always throwing supposedly “savage” lines at each other at least make it interesting and mature? I get it they’re teens/young adults so it’s normal for them to act like that, but it’s still annoying bc of mainly the writing and how much lack of depth their relationship holds. If they’re gonna be immature at least MAKE the writing sound mature or make them try to understand the situation? It’s giving wattpad writers in my golden days of enjoying fanfictions. Even then, i came across actually pretty good writers who used fanciful descriptions that actually made sense. But whats this? It’s top-tiered 15yo wattpad writer. And the characters are also giving lowkey desperate vibes? Idk in what way but it’s just there. Carolina is always wearing this protective armor of steel but then for west she lets herself in so easily??? How does that make sense…? Fine. It’s a book so escaping reality is one of the best points but dont keep saying u dont trust people when u allow urself into his hands so easily…. Just with some fingers with not even “wow” skills at all and then ur shaking tremendously already. I thought the spice was the only good thing about this book but i guess not. It’s only the cover. But I hope i change my mind as I continue to allow myself to suffer in some terrible but engaging (in a bad way duh) pain for some time. Hopefully not long. I dont wanna be reading this book for over another 3 months.

I don’t think ive ever written a complaint for a book this long.

I've never seen a complaint this long...atp just dnf it. Its okay to dnf books😭 definitely not reading this.

BAHAHAH i would but a stubborn part of me still wanna see where it’ll go…. 😬 plus i’ve got this far of puking i should continue it so that it counts into my reading goal 🥴 YES! YOU’LL BE DOING YOURSELF SUCH A HUGE FAVOR.

*gotten