Thursday Next’s Reviews > Now Panic and Freak Out > Status Update

Hey, I didn't forget about you.

My mom was still freaking out (I don't even know whether or not you even caught the comment about that part of my day from this afternoon; I'm sorry for the communication weirdness.

I might just like... I dunno what tomorrow, but I'm brainstorming.

I'll have more to say about other important things then too.

If you catch this before the morning (proper, because technically it's already the morning), I hope you sleep well.
H

And... missed a )

Sorry, I can't sleep yet so I'm just going to say a quick something here:

Me (on Friday afternoon) looking around at everything, including my life & living situation, and then saying,
"okay, I need to put my focus on physically getting out of this space/place, and keep it there, so I craft and execute the plan for that" is primarily about:

1 - wanting to cut ties with the old, in order to make proper room for the new

2 - wanting a truly clean transition – one that doesn't involve any degree of anything that could be construed as impropriety.

Because people like to talk,
and while I don't really care that much what the lemmings have to say about me, I'm not going in ANY way okay with *you* being in a position where anyone might start questioning anything about/related to you.


And I also know it shouldn't have even ever gotten anywhere near this messy in the first place.

And I feel awful about it, and I'm so sorry – which is why my next step is to do what I need to do to unf—k it all as much as possible, as quickly as possible.

I can talk about it all more tomorrow, after some sleep (including the fact that I still need to explain another thing about why I'm shere despite having zero desire for that to be true.)

Like...

I truly wish I could go back 6-10 months and re-do so much of... well, everything here.

But I don't have a time machine (this is something I say to myself now to help with not getting caught up in beating myself up about the past, especially when it starts to become to the exclusion of taking productive action in the present).

I can only address my errors now/asap; thus, it does not & will not serve me very well to *just* dwell on unchangeable past missteps I've already made (& my not just "missteps" – also past instances of walking into poles that were right in front on me, etc...)

More tomorrow.
H